IT'S NEVER ABOUT YOU

stresscore

2009-03-13T05:51:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
jared and my webcam-chat. fun.
shhh dont tell my bro i took his
cap for like fun. and only for a while okay!

tim if you're reading this, im sorry.
:P

and im just real stressed out by everything

today the only thing i ate SO FAR
was a double cheeseburger without
pickles!!!

LOL! :P

well. ill post later
bye!

aiyo.

2009-03-09T19:58:00.000-07:00

hey!

i wanna meet this fella. if you see him tell him im waiting somewhere in Pasir Ris. :)

haha he's T.I. lol!!

anyway next its Maths!!! ARGH!!!

dammit.

well nevermind la:)

anyway. i gotta go help my friend with the video editing :P

BYE

LOVE
TONI

probably my fav song of 2008.

2009-03-06T07:02:00.000-08:00

Ooh, yeah

Took awhile to think about your boy the other day
Countin' down the hours until I can see your face
I wish you would realize these words I'm tryin' to say
I'm sittin here, I wanna be, but do you even notice me?
I can't see me with no one else
Why's it too hard for you to tell?

Cause I think about you every single day
And it kills me everytime I hear your name
I love you but I feel so far away
I'm asking you, just let me know, boy think about it
Could you ever love me that way?

Tryin' hard to ignore these voices screamin' in my mind
Tellin' me I'm nothing, that I shouldn't waste my time
Something about you made me wanna spend my life
With you alone, nobody else, I'm prayin' for that day to come
Although you'll never know I'm here, no
I always try to make it clear

Cause I think about you every single day
And it kills me everytime I hear your name
I love you but I feel so far away
I'm asking you, just let me know, boy think about it
Cause I think about you every single day
And it kills me everytime I hear your name
I love you but I feel so far away
I'm asking you, just let me know, boy think about it
Could you ever love me that way?

Oooh I cannot make it clear
I've been standing here
But boy you'll never see
How much you mean to me
I wanna let you know
You never hear me though
No matter what I say
You'll always be the same
Why can't you look at me?
Boy I just wanna be
I can't live my life without you near me

Cause I think about you every single day
And it kills me everytime I hear your name
I love you but I feel so far away
I'm asking you, just let me know, boy think about it
Cause I think about you every single day
And it kills me everytime I hear your name
I love you but I feel so far away
I'm asking you, just let me know, boy think about it
Could you ever love me that way?

This was probably my Favourite song of 2008. which was yes, Last Year.
the title : Could you ever love me that way by Nikki Flores.
its a nice song, really

and about the book im reading.
not really much progress .i probably wont be able to finish it on time. lol. so sad.
hopefully i will la. its kinda interesting like the lady loves her husband a lot :)(very cute)
then like the just moved into a new town, (Tuscany) and they are chefs and bake bread :) Seems nice. some recipes are inside the book. and new friendships are made and bla bla. im like 1/4 of the way thru. plus all my school stuff i dont think i got time to read it.
maybe if i wasnt typing this now. i could probably have read about at least 5 pages more.lol. i read dammmn slowly. SORRY la!! :p

today there was a health check-up in school. kinda fun. but we missed the whole of art( :( ) cos i am near the end index number in class. so had to wait like kinda REALLY long. but it was sort of bonding time :)
LOL!!
and i still cant believe my form teacher(and lit teacher) is leaving like after march hols. that is superrr sad. i've never been so close to my form teacher since p6. so sad. then shes GOING. and probably some idiot will come and be our new form teacher. TSK!!
annoying much.
well cca was fun. and tiring today.but mostly fun. azlyn's leg was hard to clean.:P
and also. our first aid boxes are nice and big.(just how i like them:P) lol

tmr i have to meet azlyn and stacy at PR MRT at like 11. then we are going!!! :)
no more info revealed. :]
well, i've been really stressed out lately by WHAT TO WEAR TOMORROW!! sigh!! sigh again!!
:(
well. i guess im off to sleep now!
really really really tired.
and tmr i got a long day(AGAIN) and im not going catechism :(
so sad
got all the letters to pass to everyone.:P
lol
hopefully my messengers would remember to pass the letters to the receipients.:)
well. gotta go!
BYE!
LOVE
TONI

2009-03-04T00:38:00.000-08:00

Think back five months ago, were you single?
* Yes
Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
* Classmates excluding the ones near me
How was your night last night?
* Fun i guess
How do you feel right now?
* angry and sad and happy
Who were the first 2 people you heard this morning?
* Mummy and my maid:)
What are you listening to?
* Reach by S Club 7
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
* Hell yea. im very often thought of
Last thing you bought?
* Prata :)
Are you a jealous person?
* sometimes
Does it take a lot to make you cry?
* no not really
What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
* Listening in class.
Think a lot before you sleep?
* Yes. ALOT
What's running through your mind right now?
* A lot of shit. like what to wear when i go out in about 10 mins time.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
* Duh
Do you like to cuddle/snuggle?
* Yupppp.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
* Yaaa.
Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
* Yessss.But i wont reply
Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
* Some what
How late did you stay up last night?
* 10.30
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
* Water.
Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't wish to lose?
* YUP.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
* Ábigail. Jeri. Bev. Marg. Mich. Vic. Naz. Pris.
Does anyone call you baby?
* maybe
Are you a patient person?
* No
What is the last thing you said out loud?
* okay. (to my grandma)
Any plans for tomorrow?
* School and CCA :)
What can't you wait for?
* to go out in about 5 mins time?
Would you go out in public looking like you do right now?
* Dont Mind.
What's the worst way to say I love you?
* Start making out when you dont even know the person.
Seven weeks from now will you be in a relationship?
* still
What do you carry with you at all times?
* Phone! and wallet
Are you mean?
* yes
What holiday is your birthday closest to?
* July the 4th
What's the last thing you searched for on Google?
* POLAND!!

helo

2009-03-03T05:32:00.000-08:00

yay im so happy since tomorrow in school its photo-taking.
and YEA i love photo-taking sessions!! :)
so funn!!

well. its rainy almost everyday.
but today i was supeeeerrr cold. and i slept.for like 2 hours? shiok bodoh!! :)
lol.
then i woke up. :( haha
at least i woke up and didnt die :)

and i forgotsomething else. i ALWAYS forgot something else!

i passed malay :)
i passed Science :)
i failed maths :(

LOVE
TONI

HAHA

2009-02-26T05:17:00.000-08:00

i was like supposed to post a reminder on my class blog. and guess what

i like posted it here!!
hahahaha.
and today for maths test. i borrowed nazhuurah's bro's calculator.
then in return i bought nazhuurah an chicken pie. hahaha :)
we didnt really need the calculator though

tsk
then after school we had the student leader rehearsal thinggy. then after that marg, bev, enqi and mich and i wanted to go to somewhere to do CIP but then we couldnt find anywhere to do. :(
today we felt helpful. but no one wanted our help :( then marg left for some dinner thing. then the rest of us went to en qi's house. to bake cookies. WHICH ARE TASTELESS!!

LOL then took the bus (waiting for it was hell)
i was annoyed at the bus stop. but i was happy with the music. :)
then... oh yea we went to the library borrowed this book named "a thousand days in Tuscany" i thought it would be like a nice easy book but its all about food. and i dont understand. but im still tryna read it:).
i wont give up.

and its fun to act emo in class. :) lol.

i love the people around me during the test period. like all the nearby index numbers. they are fun. yes i mean you su-zann and syazi. lol. and laurencia. :P
lol

BYE
TONI

hater

2009-02-23T19:19:00.000-08:00

hello. this post is like gonna be kinda harsh ish. lol

well to anybody that hates me just to let you know you aint putting me down. cos i dont care if anyone hates me except for my closest friends(who aint you) haha:)

cos i feel that nothing should bring me down!! now with the people in my life. which some of them spread things around their school, i dont really think i should bother and give a shit.

cos its wasting my time.:)
i hope to go out more especially aft march hols. cos like i wanna relax. i wanna watch alot of movies. :

Marley and Me
Slumdog Millionaire

and other shows except pink panther 2 too! :)
hehe

i love school and i love cca and i love to take trains :) lol random!!
and i like how things are going on now

:) only a lot of ppl know! hahahaha
bye!
LOVE
TONI
hey ramita again!! :P

hmmm

2009-02-20T05:40:00.000-08:00

haiyo!! (yuck!)
well anyway school has upset me alot.

but i shall forget about it as much as possible,
and cant wait for tomorrow!! got youth mass! (did i say that already?)

well yea so im all happy to see everyone again! after one week
lol

you know im like supeeerrrr thirsty and hungry. and im trying out this eat-until-your-not-hungry-not-when-you're-full thing.

kinda NOT working!! im super hungry
but im always hungry so ill just stop eating until im not hungry anymore..

anyway, schools been shitty lately cos of the double friday thing. and next week totally aint getting better??!!! why cant school just finish after the tests?? lol

science lesson today was damn fun but i think it should be just kept within our class :) just within the four walls.

anyway i totally love Britney Spears' music!! totally awesome!as in the 1990's type.so sing-a-ble to !! yay!! woohoo!!
and i dont listen to or sing to any chris b songs anymore. after the incident! :s bleah.
*vomits on chris b*
hahahaha
i dont even wanna spell his whole name out!! D:

well.i think thats all for now ? maybe ??

hey ramita again!! :)

LOVE
TONI

long timeee

2009-02-19T04:27:00.000-08:00

tsk its been really long since my last post.
cos usually im like friendstering, facebooking, livejournalling(shh. no one knows) and/or class-blogging, or hotmail-checking. hahaha

well its kinda annoying that this morning i got HIT by a bag of a dude(unidentified for security reasons) hahaha i totally know who that dude is.

well i WAS supposed to get started on my science mindmap since 8? which is about 30 mins ago.
and theres nothing on my paper. hahahahaha

im like supeeerr lazee. but then i better get started since common tests are next week, arghh!
and tomorrow's gonna be EXACTLY like today only that tomorrow's ACTUALLY FRIDAY! haha
cos today followed friday's timetable.

tsk and we HAVE to bring home ALL our books under the table!!! gosh.
so today i brought home 6 books and i still have like a file under my table!!
tsk dammit!!
well i guess i have to do it.

and im not going for a camp which is on tomorrow(friday) to the next day(saturday) cos on friday night-slash-saturday morning haha like 12am ish. im picking my mum and sis from the airport since they are coming back from tokyo.!! woohoo i've been so sad-ish cos i havent seen them in ages!!(since tuesday)

lol. so okay . hi ramita( iknow you're reading this ) hell yea you are!! :)
hahahahhaa :P

well, i cant wait for saturday since there's church! :)

TONI

yest

2009-02-07T07:22:00.000-08:00

yest,
i got real pissed at the parent's night thing.
the chinese teacher is the worst part of my day. then
also i like stood up under then floorball goal and hit my head REAL hard.
was like damn painful!!!!
omgees. and i came home looking like some zombie.
and i slept at like 10.30
and i woke up at 10 today. (TOTALLY NOT ENOUGH)
i was like damn bloody tired!!
then went to chinatown to collect my parents' watches.
arghhh i hate that place.
haha
then i went to bugis. to buy sushi?? hahaha and some sashimi.
then went to Tembling Road to eat Wan Ton Mee. fav. and took a bus there
and was like totally running late for church
then met sarah at the bus stop after the overhead bridge.
then went into church saw everyone!!
(super happeeeee)
omgees. like i've been waiting real long for today cos its like the
first lesson!
haha. then it was pretty noisy. and i felt so annoying. then
we chilled under the block.
then marg and bev were like playing the guitar. and i was
sorta emoing-ish. then bev went somewhere and didnt come back.
then went up and like talked. and then we went into church
i was like totally distracted. then we went through mass.
then we talk abit after that. then marg got pissed then i took the bus
super crowded and i almost fell since i had nothing to hold on to
then i like rushed home even tho there was nothing to rush to.
:)
Well
till next time!!
LOVE
TONI

i wanna change the blogskin!

2009-01-23T00:06:00.000-08:00

i wanna change the blogskin!!
but i dont know what to.
now its 4.07 pm
its sunny and real warm(like me)
its friday, 23rd January oh9
i just realised it was shannon's birthday like just now in the bus :]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNON!
i never forget your birthdate! :)
hey should i go meet my mummy later?
im lazy but i wanna go out!!!
hahaha
today school was aite!
was kinda cool i actually like the chinese orchestra!
haha
then guitar was like sorry but kinda dry.
like it sounded like the chinese orchestra cos they were plucking the strings?
correct?
the indian dance was like NIIIIIIICE! :)
rock on school!!!
we are like super awesome!
well... i love school events like these!! :) or this?
now i love like school cos like teachers are so fun to talk to .. seriously!!
well.
im like viewing ppl's profiles on friendster now!!
so awesome!!
so bye bye!
TONI

Heyoh!

2009-01-22T06:11:00.000-08:00

just finished reading ZURA's bloggggg.hahhaa
was like supeeeeeeeeeeeeer weird.
i really like dont know what to type here.
cos
1) im tired
2) im bored
3) im like feeling DISTURBED
like not by anyONE but something. i just cant like explain it
probably cos we aint performing tmr. like
i got all excited and suddenly the stupid lady said we couldnt!
HEY i like performing okay!!
well. anyway its over so.. i shall try to feel not so angry bout it.!
shall sleep or something! :)
bye!

Its been a long long long time

2009-01-16T05:32:00.000-08:00

heya people
long time no typed. well
alot has been going on in school
since im like chairlady. haha
well. im trying to make a good chairlady outta myself
like try to be more involved in class and stuff
well.
nothing really much other than that has happened.
but tomorrow... I CAN COLLECT MY MP3!! yay!!
yayness(copied from michelle)
haha
well.. then..
till next time(do i always say that?)
haha
BYE!!

1st Jan o NINE!!!?

2008-12-31T22:32:00.000-08:00

yay! its 2009
some how it was a really good feeling
when it turned midnight.
i was very happy.
but now in the afternoon...
NAHH DOESNT FEEL GOOD!
cos of some idiots.
well.
i think i should just forget bout it
cos like.. you know. i shouldnt waste my time.
:)
cant wait for tomorrow.
SCHOOOOOOOL! yay!!!
so exciting.

well
i cant wait till i get my mp3 back!!
gosh!
so sad without it.
:(
its like my best friend who is
very musically inclined.
lol
well...
i wanna see my friends
and i dont wanna make new friends.
cos like i dont wanna like
you know..
i dont know la
i dont wanna be sociable(really weird)
haha.
bye

23 Dec o8 Tuesday

2008-12-22T08:08:00.000-08:00

its supaa weird
i thought Christmas was on wednesday.
well i thought wrong then.
im all tired
after all the busyness of today.
so im
gon go now.
bye

20th Dec o8 Saturday

2008-12-20T01:21:00.000-08:00

heyy sorry like
my blog is like totally dead. or
dying
well
got a funneh storayy
yest was at Tang's then
i was looking at some stuff
which looked really nice to me
then before that i pressed my hand against the
weird
shiny thang..
then some of it stuck to me
oor my hand
so when i went to look at the
stuff
i was like "mum, i think i'll put some of my fairy dust on it"
then
the lady promoter
heard what i said
and she was like laughing
then i started laughing HYSTERICALLY!
and she laughed more
then she went to a fellow promoter
who was a guy
and told him what i said!
abit LOUD
cos i could hear what she said
AND she freaking POINTED at me
lol
but i was still laughing
and mummy got angry at ME!
lol
well
till another funneh thing
happens
ill post.
once
more~!
LOVE
HUGS
KISSES
XOXO??
and Merry Christmas in case im not on
this then.
And Happy New year!!!
:)
LOVE
TONI

10 Dec o8 Wednesday.

2008-12-10T06:28:00.000-08:00

heyoh!!
well. that jake uh.
cant remember me
LOL funneh
cos its super weird
not even my friend
hahaha
did i tell you i
love my hair?
really do.
supaa cute i tell you
but i dont think no one saw it
yet.

anyway.
my grandma came back!!! (:
like i just picked her up!
lol
then tmr im picking my
mummy up! :)
yay!!!!!
so happy! =)
well anyway,
my bro is supaa idiotic.
what an idiot.
seriously.

tsk

supaa annoyed now.
talking to vic.
and jake(not really anymore)
and no one else.

sadly.
well i cant wait for 21, 24, 25, 26, 27 and 28[of course!]
of Dec. and obviously 31st dec.
and 1st Jan
:)

im happy i got a lot of songs.
(= not really alot la.. just more than before
DUH!

i wonder if this is like a kinda LONGGG
post
cos like i keep pressing the ENTER button
tsk

well. i dont wanna
sleep tonight.
cos im like excited that my mummy
is coming back
tomorrrrrrooooooooooeeeeee...!!!
lol

7 Dec o8

2008-12-07T23:39:00.000-08:00

so. yesterday my mum went to hawaii.
tomorrow marg's going to america.
the next day my grandmama coming back
the next day my mummy's coming back! :)
yay!
love
toni

7 Dec o8 Sunday

2008-12-06T08:49:00.000-08:00

Name 20 people.
1) Margarita Seah
2) Darian Melson
3) Beverly Quek
4) Jared Goh
5) Ryan Spencer
6) Jeraldine Tee
7) Abigail Lee
8) Michelle Choo
9) Stephanie Ashton
10) Kayne Augustine
11) Sarah Sim
12) Timothy Lloyd
13) Rohaizat?
14) Megan Elizabeth
15) Victoria Teo
16) En Qi
17) Ramita
18) Erika
19) Tawfiq
20) Kimberly

1.How did you meet 14? She was my classmate this year.

2.What would you do if you never met 1? I would be straight. AND WOULD TOTALLY DIE!!!

3.What if 9 and 20 date each other? They are cousins so it would just be lesbian and weird.

4.Will 6 and 17 date? If any of them are lesbian. Maybe.

5.Describe 3! My fun-sized, always pissed-off, cute, bubbly, girl friend!

6.Is 8 attractive? hell yea.

7. Describe 7. My best friend, who i have been in the same class as since p1 till sec 1!! :)

8.Do you know any of 12's family member? Duh.. how bout ME?

9.What if 18 confesses to you he or she likes you? It would be super weird. and gay-ish.

10.What Language does 15 speaks? english and maybe mandarin.

11.Who's going out with 9? A dude.named *******.

12.How old is 16? She's 13.

14.Who is 2's favourite singer? the a7x dude, i guess.

15.Would you ever date with 4? MAYBE..

16.Will you ever date with 1? HELL YEA.

17.Is 19 single? i dont know.

18.What's 10's last name? read it yourself, bitch.

20.Where does 6 live? In tampines.

21. What is your favourite thing of 5? em. he's nice.

22. Have you seen 11 naked? nope. and im happy i haven't. :)

Now choose 5 people to do this test:
1. Beverly Anne.
2. Margarita Seah.
3. Jared Goh
4. Darian Melson
5. Ryan Spencer

December 3 o8 WadNessDei.

2008-12-03T05:18:00.000-08:00

Heya
.
The whole day I never use the com
except for now.
so i'm happy.
i bought a dress from raffles place.
its niceeeee.
im so happy i got it
its for my christmas.
LOL
so now... im like bored and stuff.
everything seems so boring
as in online.
the only fun thing to do
is chat on msn.
that is if anyone is online.
so yea.
and i like to read
newspapers
cos they're interesting.
im just gonna tell you random stuff
about me.
lols.
im supaa weird.
i know.
you know about the december diary right
haha
anywho.
i wanna go back to school!!
so exciting
and i'm counting down the days to a
lot of things
haha
last night i was watching borat.
it was funnay..
and i went to sleep halfway
cos i was tired [duh]
.....
i wanna go out.again
or maybe just go to sleep.

LOVE
TONI

1 December o8. Monday

2008-12-01T07:05:00.000-08:00

hey
i was cleaning my room earlier on.
and i found an empty notebook
i was so happy that i named it
December Diary.
i know its lame
but lame=me
so yea
im gonna sign off now
cos im too lazy
LOVE
TONI

29th November o8

2008-11-29T05:16:00.000-08:00

hello,
i woke up at 11.30 something today
wooohooo!!!!
so fun..
and i went
for a run
with my sister
then i followed her
cos she wanted to thread her eyebrows
then im using the com
now.
like totally
talking to sexy fats and blondie.
fun. but confusing
so..
im going off now.
to continue to talk
to them.
and get myself into
a more
confused state.
so... BYE

LOVE
TONI

28 November o8, Friday

2008-11-28T08:39:00.000-08:00

so.
today. i had cca
i think the last session till the next two weeks
fun stuff
with the prata and rubber bands ;) only some ppl know about that
lol
so anyway
im feeling weird.
sad
angry
happy
hyper
and i wanna cry
no reason.

I wanna go out everyday.
except in the mornings.
like whenever i feel like it or whenever i wanna
is that the same thing?
i dont know what to talk about so ill just stop.
and sleep
and
GOODNIGHT!!!
its 12.48am.
so its 29th nov.
its my cousin's birthday!!!
lol

LOVE
TONI

23 Nov 08; Sunday

2008-11-23T02:19:00.000-08:00

hey.
its raining
still.
since just now.
im sad
and
my eyes are
dry
doesn't this entry
sound
so emo
?
feeling lame

TONI

16 november 2008 , sunday.

2008-11-16T07:00:00.000-08:00

hello everybody.
i went to parkway parade just now.
go get phones.
but im like totally very very tired.
cos i woke up kinda *early* and i walked about most of the day.
then, now i just reached home and tried to log in to friendster. BUT i really cant i dont know why.
maybe i will go to the park again today like i did yesterday.
yesterday, i went to the park nearby then my parents and i walked to bond (to exercise actually) haha it was fun. but after that i was really the hungriest i've ever felt in a really long time.. or maybe my whole life.
then we went to loyang point to eat dinner.
i had char siew rice. it was awesome.
really. really awesome.
lol
anyway.. today there was a really cute baby in church in front of my family. he was a boy. (DUH) then we were like making him smile.(i didnt succeed) my papa made the baby scared.haha.
so anyway i hope i can go out on tuesday, with PEOPLE. haha.
just one thing i wanna tell you all.
actually more than one.
but if i put it as my profile, abi will probably say that i copy her. but its my about me that im going to write.
and oh shit im having deja vu.
well. anyway
TONI :
worries too much about small things.
wishes she had cookies in a jar whenever she wanted it.
wants to hit someone in the face with her elbow when she's tying her hair.
secretly prays that she gets an eating disorder but doesnt want people to know cos she knows everyone would scold her.
wishes her body was like rihanna's.
isnt gonna eat macs till christmas.
is probably going to order her books soon.
is most likely to cut her fringe just before christmas.
is happy to know she is Eurasian.
has little confidence even though she's damn action.
haha
nice
i'll try to add more stuff like this in the future entries.
oh and one, or two, more
TONI :
wishes she had a talkshow which is a funny as The Ellen D Show.
didnt know how to spell her surname so she wrote D.

LOVE
TONI

ps : if jared will be happier,
JARED'S FATS ARE SEXY!!!

november 15 o 8

2008-11-14T21:15:00.000-08:00

heya all!

i've been bored everyday except the times i've been out. like out of the house
like totally.
i wanna do something really crazy like smash a car or something that will get me in deep shit. but just that i wont have to suffer the deep shit.
anyway, some people like really annoy me. oh yea. like yesterday i went to spotlight
at plaza sing. then i was walking thru one of the lanes.then this stupid other family, was like standing there so i like WAITED for them to PASS by the extremely small lane. and there were like 5,6 of them. i was even kind enought to wait. but they're just really dumb. then one boy look at me like "why are you standing there" , that stupid face. then i was like "WHAT THE ****" and i walked by another stupid lane. i really felt like punching that WHOLE damn family. seriously
also, still at spotlight, i was following my mum and bro, then i saw something really nice, forgot what it was, then i went back to see if they were still there . so i thought they would be at the next lane. then i was like WHISPERING really loudly. "MUMMAY!!! MUMMAY!!!" then i walked to the next lane, and this chinese couple was standing there then they turn their head and looked up at me then i started to laugh cos it was super funny. and totally embarrassing..but WHO CARES!! haha.
anywho... haha. lol.. im all tired now.and i think im gonna go off now. this is like some composition with paragraphs. LOL. feels so smart. like even though im like NOT

LOVE
TONI

things that happened since the last post ; 9 nov

2008-11-09T03:31:00.000-08:00

hey everyone
today (9/11)
is my brother's confirmation!!!
the mass was weirdly long today.
well.. kinda saw it coming anyway.
so.. if i didnt tell you about con 1 camp yet,
i'll tell you now.
well. it happened on the weekend of 25/26 of october
it was like fun like crazy..
to me it was funner than school camp
made kinda a few new friends and got
closer ( in friend terms ) to my old friends.
we played fun games had mass and lotsa food.
and we learnt about God like the whole time
then we watched evan almighty
haha
well i just wish that the camp was like for a week.
but too bad it wasn't
...so..

i went out quite a lot during the hols
to like TM, ehub, whitesands(like always), and pasir ris park
well.saw old friends and went out with the new ones.
gahhh..
i went to a party like yesterday.
won't say whose though.
haha
im mean
and fat
too fat that i wont eat at macs till
Christmas
i wanna look good for christmas you know.
haha and i always eat macs
so its like my sacrifice
well. lotsa my friends are going overseas till like after Christmas
that i'll be lonely and sad
well.
i just have to make the best of the rest of the hols.
can't wait for Christmas to come
cos its just fun
especially the preperation
we can like BUY STUFF.
and decorate our house
put up the BEAUTIFUL tree
and SHARE the SPIRIT
and definitely PARTAY

anyway...
i love going online but i usually only go to friendster
or chat with people on msn
and i love to go out but i dont know where
to go and not sure if my folks will allow me out
so yea..
oh yes .i need to tell
everyone my embarrassing moment
haha
its real funny.. well to me at least
well here it goes :

during cca
we were sitting on the floor at the sunken foyer
then we were all sitting cross-legged
then the seniors asked us to change from
our boots to shoes
then my left leg was numb
but i stood up anyway (of course la)
then i took one step with my right leg
and i thought i stepped on the floor with my
left leg
but apparently i didnt
so i like lifted my right leg off the ground
and i fell.
hahaha to me it was damn funny.
then quite a lot of other secondary ppl were
sitting on the stairs and they
saw what happened
then they had the "what the hell happened to her" kinda
look on their faces haha
it hurt badly but it was funny
and i scratched my leg
haha
now my butt hurts
whenever i stand up or sit down
lol

im listening to big girls don't cry now.
just bored.
as always

i don't know what to say but
i think im done
so i just got one more thing to say

JARED'S FATS ARE SEXY!!!

LOVE
TONI

14 october 2008

2008-10-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

hey mom there's something in the back room.

lol. just in the mood
of KILLING someone!!!
wooohooo!
j's next to me.
and im talking to k.
not s or b or sb(soulja boy) lol
why not we go crank that?
j's finger is sizzling like before it was sizzling
it was like frozen fishsticks.until
she touched my elbow
it was burning HOT
hahah
im confused with my own typing
hahahahahah
lol

yesterday i went ice skating!
it was fun
oh damn

j hates talking to me
cos im such an idiot!
i know i am
that's why im her friend!
okay enough already fool!!!

ending off with this stoopid keyboard
its damn sickening
TONI

11 october 08

2008-10-11T05:20:00.000-07:00

hey. long long time it has been
well.. gotta keep this short.
ain't my computer.
er...life has been good
exams are over...FINALLY
and post-exam activities are
coming soon!
we're like going bowling and stuff
hahaha
then we have to do our push-cart project
i really
really hope our class will make it!
we have to show our teachers
we know how to succeed even though
we're like the noisiest people around
well someone got in trouble yest.
but
aint your busyness person!
lol-lipop
hahahahaha
well.. can't
wait for cca to start again
like ferreal i can't wait
needa get my discipline all
worked.
i love cca ...
we rockin and rolling every single
day
sorry but im not really thinking straight
right now..
lol
had a long tiring day
but still aint over yet
when i get home.. needa
take my meds for my ear.
haha
its infected and people
don't believe me..
what the hell.
i wouldn't lie about these kindsa thangs
RIGHT?
gees
anyway...
i needa pass tawfiq my letters
but he's sleeping!!!!!
ARGH!
lols...
anyway till the next time i post
always know.im still alive.
except after you see me
in them papers.
LOVE YA'LL
even though im hurtin' deep
down inside
hahaha
im still hurt by him dammit!
LOVE
TONI

26 Sept 2008

2008-09-25T18:10:00.000-07:00

yay! school again. one week since
the last episode
jerry was like smiling at me
so i smile at her back then
we both started laughing!!!
anyway. this malay camp-y
thinggy then its on a friday
and i think there's cca on that
day so i haven't been to cca for really really
long. so i don't know if i should
go for the camp-y thinggy
......
yesterday i met "R.nat" haha
nickname for identification
purposes
hahahahahahahahaha
anyway marga, vic, and bev
look like crazy fools
no wonder they're my best friends
hahaha
the normal people
are abigail( who is alright ) jeraldine
and MOO2 (squared) so its moo moo!!!
hahahahahahaha
i wanna study alot
so i can pass my end-of-years!!!
ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i'm scared of failing.
NOoooo
MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
cherry.very cherry.very good!!! :D

LOVE
TONI

19 September 2008

2008-09-18T17:27:00.000-07:00

hey long time no post
on wednesday i went to ikea.
then when i came home i watched
a malay show. the last episode
then i wanted my mummy to cut my
fringe. but she was watching TV
so she asked my sis to do it.
then my sis cut my fringe.:D
i was so happy.
then yesterday,thursday,
when i went to school chels
was like eeeee. then other people
like kris and michelle were like
you look like a doll.
hahahahahaha
yesterday i was bored at home
today im still in school.
not bored
but scared of the maths test
and drama assessment/exam
i can't wait till its over!!!!!
i wish there was second language lesson
every day!!!!
some fool never even tell me that
he went overseas.
like what the hell.
i feel so un-trusted.
and i feel so annoyed cos like
abby's ignoring me AGAIN.
like i didn't even do anything
on wednesday she was like
all fun and talking to me
then yesterday she was like trying to
avoid me
it happened before
so now im like not going to bother.
well,
tomorrow's the koto test. have to
go to the HQ for it.
don't know what's the going-there plan
so yea.. lets hope for the best
like i was and am studying real hard
for it.
thanks to fran for lending me the notes
so i could photocopy it! :D
LOVEs
TONI

10 September 08

2008-09-09T21:52:00.001-07:00

It's been like what? 10 days???
well, my sister's laptop like spoilt...haven't bought a computer yet.
erm...i miss going for CCA.
like for 2 weeks already never go.. cos there isn't
but i wanna go cos im all fat.
it's damn annoying that im fat...
well anyway. i love going out..
now im like VERY distracted in school. then
like a TEACHER talked to me about me and my potential..
im like okay okay don't tell me already
i already know that i'm distracted
and i totally disrupt class alot
only a few lessons. some lessons i just talk to
abigail or marga.. well i don't
talk to marga
i shout across the class to "talk" to her.. hahaha
well... hope to see my CCA people soon.. very soon.
hahahahahahahahahaha
anyway laurencia is so annoying .. everything also lie lie lie....
and nazhuurah is looking so angry.. and annoyed at me... or
Laurencia.. obviously not pearlyn cos she hasn't done anything
wrong.. unlike me and the person whose index number
is before mine..(aka Laurencia)
hahahaha
okay
till next time

which in fact may be a very long time more...

i don't know when im getting a new computer..hahaha
see you soon!!!
bye

LOVE
TONI
BRACKEN
100908
TONI LOVES LAURENCIA..
(she forced me to)

31st August 2008

2008-08-31T02:23:00.000-07:00

im really scared that this post would not be able to publish properly!!!
anyway
lets talk about yesterday 30th august
well,
i missed catechism for the how many'th time
but it was AGI parade..
so fun but really tiring
I made friends.but only from First Toa Payoh Sec
the rest of them seemed rather unfriendly.
some guys were cute.
sorry i got a little distracted at times
Last week i was the earliest at Bedok platform
This week i was the latest haha.
I was tired so my mum massaged my legs! sweet right!!!
I LOVE MY MUMMY!

and i wanna go out.. but im stuck at home
i don't wanna stay at home
at least i get to use the com
while im messaging azlyn cos she's
probably bored on the way to meeting ilyana
and vanessa
well,
i told megan that azlyn was my sister
and she believed me..haha
i'm probably gonna tell megan when school opens
that i only have one sister , NOT IN THIS ScHOOL anymore
hahaha
hopefully later i can make my daily visit
to... WS! haha
lol.
if blogs are supposed to be personal. i don't
think i'll ever have a blog.cos
i think that ALL this stuff i'm typing is
just random fun!
i did not understand what i just said
hahahaha

anyway.
i went to church just now.
and i hate friendster.everything
also need to sign in.
damn retarded seh.
i probably signed in for more than 20 times
like seriously.
its pissing me off.
and i can't even log in to my msn account
i feel like stabbing the com!!!

i wanna go for cca!!!
and maybe this thursday im going to HK..
yes..Hong Kong to eat dim sum.
then come back on the same night
:D
i need to go to abigail's hse
one of these days to practice for drama
but i don't know if im free and i don't know if she's
free.haha
i feel like going to mcdonald's and stuffing my head
into the largely salted fries thinggy.

why does everyone(almost) think that i am
filipina ????
im not against it but i just wanna
know WHY
cos i'm NOT AT ALL!!!!

okay.now im pissed and i don't feel like blogging anymore
so
see ya'll around
and sorry i have to say this so openly
but
IMISSSYAFIQ!!!
LOVE
TONI

29 august

2008-08-29T01:12:00.000-07:00

im so pissed.. i typed a whole post and
the thing didn't save
F***!!!!!!!
TONI

28 August 2008

2008-08-28T03:13:00.000-07:00

JERRY' S BIRTHDAY
i bought her a mini cake
guess what
she didn't even come to school!
i had to bring the freaking cake back
i also had to bring lotsa books home too
some fools in my class, left them in the cupboard..
haha im like saboh-ing them
eee so singap^or^ean ...
i wanna go for cca
but this week there isn't due to
TEACHERS DAY
yay! bought a shared present with Sarah for Ms Ros
then gonna meet Mdm Siti at the coffeeshop
to celebrate her day!
hahaha
i think the primary school side teachers...
i just visit them another day la..

yesterday i didnt come online
so sad
i was too tired
i slept at like 8.45
after meeting my mum
which was after school which
ended at 1.45 ..
i cooked noodles.
anna's one was surprisingly delicious
so mean...
mine tasted cold and hard
probably got a stomach ache cosa that
anyway. tomorrow i hope teachers would
enjoy their special day of NOT teaching!
hahahaha
i love saying hahahaha not just haha or lol
i like expressing my laughter to the maximum

somehow i still wish it was last year..
we were all still younger and noisier
got into lotsa trouble but
my class and friends went through
all of it an came out alive
so we can beat anything as long as
we're together
which unfortunately isn't anymore.

my lower thorax (haha) is hurting really badly now
im smart with the bones thing
and since seniors say my blog(the other one) is like
not alive
i try to post on this one
TRY to post everyday
not just boring posts but kinda
fun ones.

Azlyn sat behind Kris today
Kris was behind me
Michelle was next to me
like the same way when the tyre of the bus burst!
hahaha
then azlyn's boyfriend went up and sat next to her for like
10 seconds then he shifted seat
sad :C

today Bear-ver-lee
and I were like writing long letters to each other...
in school. where
all the learning takes place
and now my leg in cramping like shit
not camping
hahaha
well, that's all for today
see you soon..
hope fully tomorrow

If tomorrow never comes....
well if it doesn't i would just like to tell HIM
that i love him
and all my classmates,seniors,teachers,exteachers,friends and schoolmates
too
.. but i think tomorrow would come.
so i'll try to post tomorrow too!
LOV E
TO NI

Tuesday 26 August

2008-08-25T23:40:00.000-07:00

what a fun day.
The freakin bus tyre burst.
like really loudly, listening to my extremely loud blasting
music,
I could even hear the burst in process.
haha
azlyn heard it too.
michelle couldn't hear a thing.
lol.. so weird.
so azlyn michelle kris and i took a cab to school
to avoid being late for school and getting
into trouble.
see, we love our school dearly.

friday's teacher's day.
the primary school teachers are going for some retreat for teachers
at like bintan or something..
till sunday ? mdm siti told me and abi when we met for prata
:D haha... anyway.
i see a girl who's annoyed by me outside the window
. yesterday, i went to raffles place and bought shoes and
4 curry puffs from polar !!!!
haha.. it was a messy snack..
REAL MESSY.
hahaha.
im so dead for the maths and geography project
which, in fact, ALL hasn't been started on YET.

hopefully i'll do it now.

see ya later alligator,
not too soon big babboon.
LOVE
TONI

today

2008-08-24T21:02:00.000-07:00

well, today the bus ride in the morning was kinda exciting.
saw many familiar faces.
the guys that used to take different buses took like the same bus altogether today
except one.
the hottest one.
sorry i cant help but he is cute.
even chels thinks so.
at least used to.
well,today started off happily.
in school, i suddenly felt sad.
again!!!
im so pissed off by being sad
like im wasting part of my life not
being happy.
oh mich took the bus in the morning after
about 3-4 days being sent to school
by her dad. :(

Till next time
LOVE
TONI

Hello

2008-08-24T06:54:00.001-07:00

heya all..

im feeling UNLOVED today.
yesterday went for AGI training at Dunman High.
it was raining like crazay.
haha
Fran, Sarah, Letitia, Ilyana and I went together from bedok to buena vista.
like a half an hour ride altogether.
saw 14 hot guys ... haha
sorry but i HAD to count.

TODAY
i went to church.
then i went home to clean my room. ITS LIKE A JUNKYARD only nicer...
then i went to whitesands to buy ice cream!
then i went home.
then i slept until 7
then i went to Changi Village to eat
then i went home to switch on the com
and now im typing
woo how amazingly talented i am!!

till tmr.. i have a long day at school tomorrow..
actually its just like any other monday
and i haven't seen marga in a long time.
since thursday
i feel so happy to write in this blog..
seems so funky and fresh
and much better than the rest.
:D haha does that rhyme or what.

im gonna sleep soon.
the time now is 10 pm maybe in half and hour im
gonna sleep.. its all cold today.
really.. i don't like it.
so tomorrow i shall bring a sweater to school
to keep me warm.
hopefully tomorrow would be a more loving
day for me.

LOVE YA'LL

TONI